Full Throttle, baby

Photoshop Doodle

Weeks ago, I was merely trying to draw enough to put into a full coloring book for grownups. But as my recent conversation on Facebook with Marie, whom since our college days, has been a pillar of strength, though she may deny it, but bless her, her mind is a source of pure keen perception.

While I was listening attentively to another dear friend, Sally, who has been tutoring me on the business side of being a startup,  and no, that is not entirely true, Sally has been schooling me on the intimate workings of starting a business based on my skillset, which was drawing and illustrating, and both of  them allows for a very educational foray into the world of taking control of my venture.

Now, to others I may have been focusing on the wrong part of this venture, mainly to create more relevant and enduring artwork. But you must understand, my casual internet visitor, yes, you who is reading this today. I love woodcuts. I love the way a single color can elicit a wide variety of emotion upon the beholder. I am also enamored with comics  and editorial cartoons. I always try to pay homage to these influences. Artists like Javinal, Malgapo, Acuna, Freff, Moebius, among others. Writers and creators like Poblete and Ravelo, Miller, Moore, Gaiman. And all of those unnamed printing pioneers who perfected woodcuts and negatives in the old days of publishing. My own creation may be very far off from these masters, but I try, really I try.

Even with just starting with a coloring book meant for hobbyists and enthusiasts, I try to present my work in a manner that is not merely trying to put out anything, but with purpose and roots.

Which is why the decision to go and learn anything and everything about the business, cost and expenses, marketing and sales, choosing the matrials for the artworks themselves, the right ink, looking for potential investors to bankroll this venture and offer a reasonable ROI for a long term business relationship.

Because ewhen this thing gets rolling there is that possibility I may have to register a business name and pay taxes for it.

Which brings me into looking foir new channels to earn from. Obet led me to a crowdfunding site and it blew me away – Patreon was what i was looking for. Give to an artists who knows what to refer to another artist, but Obet is on an entrely higher plane and I value his thoughts on this matter, too.

So when things get too heavy on my mind….

I make Photoshop Doodles!

Daunting

Whoa.

After a couple of days thinking up expenses and costs, product pricing and marketing, my head feels like somebody installed a crank and just spun away until everything blends into one moving blob in front of my eyes and I end up cross-eyed, wanting to throw up.

Because that is how it is when a noob like me gets all too cocky and jumped the entrepreneur train with nary a look back. It’s as  scary as walking a dark alley, or as frightening as a swim across an angry lake. You tremble in terror but you go through it because you need to be on the other side.

I needed to do this because I absolutely want to be on the other side.

And I’d like to trhink I’m a bit wiser now than the previous weekend, even if mathematical equations as simple as adding and multiplying is a tremendous task to me. but the foiresight now has shape, the horizon a bit more colorful, and now I have an idea where my faults would come up or when to brace for the punch that’s coming up my face.

This is how it is on being in control. Planning and sorting out so that the good and bad possibilities.

Now from what I learned lookiong at figures we have generated, I would have to curb my expenses to cut down on costs so that the profits earned will suirely be worth waiting for.

Taking The Leap of Faith

CaptureWhen I decided to have a go at it and learn everything I can with the business of publishing my own coloring book for grown up.

I never knew I could be this scared in my entire life.

And there are very few instances that I could call myself batshit scared out of my wits:

Marriage.

Fatherhood.

and now:

Startup.

The other day I just had a disturbing sort of discussion with some friends, well one is a good friend and a couple I just knew from my previous job. And I was mystified that they have reacted as if I was merely being a brat when I commented that there was no movement on their part while I was illustrating my ass off.

Oh, the project was the adult coloring book. We were supposed to be all four people as business partners, two of us would be illustrating.

So I was expecting the others would be busy building up the costing nad marketing plan while two of us were doing the drawings.

I assumed wrong. Maybe because it’s my own fault that we never really discussed the roles each of us need to fill. And they, at least two reacted as if I was picking a fight. Illustrating is what I feel passionately about, and putting out something with good quality and lasting impression is what I feel passionately too. So my strong queries led me to think I had to do things on my own.

Well not entirely alone, I mean I know nothing of the business side of publishing so I still need Marie‘s input with this, and the costing and business plan, I sought out another dear friend – Sally , we’ve known each other for several years now – and get my brain working in a businessman’s train of thought.

So taking the reigns, I may have stepped on people’s toes. But that is understandable. Putting out a book, even a coloring book, is not just some whimsical “let’s make our own adult coloring book!” gang outing. It needs to start with the right kind of attitude and the strong sense of realistic purpose, not some trendy hashtag.

So I dug up information. And sent out inquiries to National Bookstore that led to to Anvil Publishing and so I went and printed a mockup  of the coloring book took the sample to Pioneer street in Mandaluyong. Needless to say I was exhilirated and downraight frightened of the thought of going all indie. Along with these inquiries, I also sent out emails to several bookstores, but NBS is the responded positively.

Why am I terrorized by this prospect?

A lot is riding on this venture. A couple of months ago I started putting out my own comics creations via my Wix site/portfolio and just made them available to everyone who’s smart enought to read stuff on the web. And the other stories that I have been talking about in my tweets, Facebook and Blogger I have just gone out and done.

It’s a leap of faith.

I’ve taken it.

And the feeling is all sorts of wonder, dread and…

Elation.

Because I’m tired of giving away my artwork. I’m tired of people like Kit who acts as if he’s your savior and champion while stompiong on your artistry by treating as a mediocre graphic artist, dragghing you into all sorts of cons and events without really knowing if you ecer get something out of it. Carlo once told me, if you’re good at something, don’t give it for free, or something in that vein.

So my decision is put out something worthy of selling and virtually saying-

“I offer you this. You want it, give me your money”

There it is.