Only moments of reflection and re-assessment, defenses still on. We all need to step back and see in all clarity what the heck are we doing wrong, and is anything salavageable, and then get back at it again. Only fools commit or even ponder suicide. Failures should prompt you to be better, not lesser. And nobody was given any ” Manual of Life for Dummies” book at birth so, your guess is as good as mine, and just keep going forward.